Behold Seremban, I'm coming back!!!

Time really flies, 1 more week and I'll be back to Seremban for a new semester (semester 9). I'll be thrown into the routine again......hospital, wad work, clerk patients, bedside teaching, speechless when bombarded by questions I dunno the answers, lunch, seminar, presentation, library, dinner, library, study, study, study, TV, ZZzzzzz, hospital again, exam, stress......

Somehow I have some usual feeling, part of me FEAR of going back to that kind of routine, while part of me wish I could go back to uni as soon as possible. I think its because I've been too 'free' for quite some time and my mind has slowly become idle. As much as I dislike work and stress, I think I'm also a goal orientated person who can't stand doing nothing for a long period of time. When I look back at the past 3 months, apart from my trip to Aceh and Sibu, my selective in Ipoh and Penang GH, I was practically 'rotting' at home...eat, sleep, TV, internet, eat, sleep...no worries, no tension. I really can't imagine having that kind of routine for the rest of my life. Yet I do appreciate that kind of moments once in a while for obvious reason.

Now I'm trying 'very hard' to prepare myself for the coming challenges. Its like trying to restart the car engine that has not being used for quite some time. Imagine the number of time you have to turn car key and the noise the engine would make. The same goes to my mind and my spirit man. One thing I regret is that I didn't take the opportunity to really build up spiritual life. I didn't spend much time in prayer and studying the word, even when I have no excuse of being 'busy'. Sigh...

My current tasks would be finishing up my reports on elective and selectives, buying a few new formal wears, shoes, doing some last minute read up on important topics (I was told that I'll be starting on Internal Medicine posting, which is one of the toughest and busiest posting), and......I'm still trying to figure out what else...

I remember when i was a child, i wished i could grow up faster. And when i have grown up, i wished i could go back to childhood again...what an irony. Well, one thing for sure, the more i grow up, the more responsibility i have, the more stress i have to handle, the more people i have to face. But i guess it is the responsibility, stress and human contact that propel us to grow, in our inner self of course. In fact, a pastor when preaching in my church last Sunday said,' the only time a person is free of problems is when he or she is dead.' I believe there's truth in it. If I were to be problem free with nothing to care about, to accomplish or to be responsible of, then I am NOT living a life. So much so Jesus came so that I can live a life to the fullest!